Has blossomed into a palette of awesome colors.
I need to feel my nerves rattle,
as everyone gets on them.
My skin crawl,
at the thought of tomorrow's problem.
Jump hurdles,
with unthinkable height and speed.
Have sleepless nights,
tossing and turning.
Panic when the phone rings.
Who have I not paid?
Fear the vet bill,
yet the dog needs meds.
Hate for all the things,
life forces from our pockets.
Cringe at the shrill
of my sick baby.
Curse my boss
can't believe her.
Frustration, my car is in
need of a window and tune up.
Desperate to solve everything,
at this moment.
Resentful, how can my in-laws
just abandon their parents?
Confused, what, who, when,
WHERE?
Angry, because I feel worthless,
but know I am not.
Hungry, but the food is for the kids,
for them I'll starve.
Remorseful, for lives lost,
and ruined.
Bewildered at this very moment,
how can I change it.
Ashamed, why can I not
stand on my own feet?

And this is just one half of the day.

~by Randi Sword